My little weight loss journey has been a horrific nightmare! I was super motivated when I first got the idea, but after a few weeks I feel that my mind has been warped by food anxiety. I thought it was a good idea to share my journey with the world, but the pressure has led me to develop problems with self-control and overeating.
Although I really tried to not let the diet mentality consume me, I couldn’t resist the all-to-common patterns of self-loathing and poor body image most of us have dealt with in the past. After setting a goal for myself, I found myself in a cycle of bouts strict dieting followed by binge eating.
A few days ago I decided to stop this madness and go back to eating based on my intuitive cravings. I feel like a weight has been lifted as I am no longer starving myself nor overeating.
I must conclude that, try as I might to be immune, the modern weight loss mentality is a pit of despair and futility. Eating will always be a part of our lives and we cannot think of our health and weight as a checkpoint in a video game. I will try not to be swindled again by Instagram-esq body obsession and instead simply focus on eating whole, plant-based foods whenever I’m hungry.